Preparation: I cleansed the cards with incense smoke. I connected with the cards and the universe through a meditation in which I focused on a net of light starting from my inner body flowing through my hands and encompassing my body, slowly lifting that net towards the sky and outside towards the universe, towards the seen and unseen. I invited guides, spirits, fate and the universe to connect their energy through my net and lastly, my cards to connect their net of energy to mine. I focused on energy flowing through the connected lines of the net, uninterrupted and calm. I said my intention of connecting to all the energies and the cards as we are flowing together in harmony and listening to all the messages the cards will pick up for me. 

Inquiry: Will my health concerns resolve?

Process: I shuffled the cards until 2 fell out: the Queen of Cups and the Ten of Cups. I originally wanted to draw just 1 out and maybe ask follow up questions, but I felt like I needed to keep going. As the cards fell, they were one next to each other so I quickly realized I should make different rows instead. I understood a positive message from these 2 cards, but I had a nagging feeling that there's more so I continued shuffling until the Knight of Pentacles fell out. 

The apparition of the Knight of Pentacles gave me a sense of burden, like he was looking troubled into the horizon. I decided to leave it for a bit and instead ask for a follow up card on the Ten of Cups since I felt it was rather general, like I was looking at the big picture. My eyes focused on the couple in the picture and they gave me a sense of collaboration, everything around them being just added details so I figured there might be something with that. I started shuffling again and this time, the Ten of Pentacles and the Two of Cups both fell out. I felt like they looked great one underneath the other. I got the feeling of "communion" and "coming together", as well as being careful to communicate and nurture relationships. 

The Knight of Pentacles was still bugging me so I asked for a follow up card and I got the Ten of Wands. A lot of Tens at this time. I understood the message of "You have all the tools, but you're overwhelming yourself". The initial message of burden from the Knight of Pentacles was intensifying. I kept shuffling for another card because I felt like the message wasn't over and the Three of Pentacles fell out. I felt the message of "communication" was repeating and this time, "community" as well. I felt this meant I should ask for help or I should accept help instead of overburdening myself and taking on all the work. While the message felt complete, there was something about the Ten of Wands that was bugging my mind, but I left it for now. 

Looking at the Queen Of Cups, I felt she was contemplating the contents of her cup, rather sadly, so I decided to draw another card which turned out to be the Ace of Wands. I was slightly bewildered by this because it felt like I was being shown the contents of the cup itself. I figured the message was to trust the support I'm given, while my blessings might seem incredible, to accept and enjoy them, because everything will resolve. 

Since there was an empty space on this row, I felt like I shouldn't leave it empty so I shuffled for another card that turned out to be the Queen of Wands. I was mainly attracted to her self-assured, confident facial expression and she gave me an air of independence. Looking at her in combination with the card next to her, the Two of Cups, I realized a new message becoming stronger: while relationships are key, don't forget to live for yourself and maintain your independence and personhood. 

As I looked at the entire reading (while the Ten of Wands was still bugging me), I got the following general message: the answer to the question of whether my health concerns will resolve is Yes. But only by nurturing the relationships and connections in my life, being careful not to overburden myself or overwork myself and by accepting help. I have all the tools to succeed, as long as I also organize my life a bit: leave what doesn’t have place in my life and while communion is important, I should not forget to live for myself, as an independent person as well. Last but not least, relax and enjoy the beauties and the blessings I’ve been given. 

Looking at the Ten of Wands in combination with the Knight of Pentacles, I felt like both expressed burden (through the armor of the Knight and the number of wands in the Ten of Wands), but then I thought they both were somehow getting ready for a battle. The Knight looked worried into the horizon and the person in the Ten of Wands is probably franticly trying to get ready for something. So I thought the additional message is to stop waiting for the other shoe to drop all the time, stop looking for signs something is going to go wrong. I asked for an answer on what could one of those burdens expressed by the Ten of Wands be and got the Page of Swords, which to me felt like a confirmation on the previous message. The Page is hypervigilant, looking over her shoulder to see the threat coming, even though she's a giant reigning over everything. She could also signify the previous challenges I had to overcome when it comes to my health that had build up a giant-like fear of what is coming next. 

Lastly, I searched for the meaning of the number 10 in numerology and I discovered it meant: new beginnings, leadership, innovation, self discovery and independence. I feel like these meanings encompass all the messages present in the reading. 

I felt like this was the end of the reading, so I didn't shuffle anymore. I looked at all the cards again and retold the entire message and accepted it into my heart. I thanked the cards and all of the energies. 

 

Thank you for the wonderful course! It reignited the love and excitement I had first felt for the cards when I was a small child and it pushed me to finally get my own decks!I had a wonderful time discovering and beginning to understand the Tarot!