I remembered my 11 years old was in 2011. It was the time where I officially had my first love relationship kind thing with this one girl of my middle school friends. The thing is when I was at that age, most of my classmates' friends started to have their boyfriend and girlfriend while I hadn’t yet. I started to feel a bit pressured because of it and then one day, my chairmate friend who was already having a girlfriend talked to me saying “Hey, why don’t you try to make out with her. I heard that she’s also had a feeling for you” After that particular moment, this not-so-smart boy had this spontaneous idea on his mind "Hmm, he did actually made a clear point". I finally decided I need to make out with this girl that my friend told me about. It was so stupid if I had to think of it now. I started a love relationship just because of the pressure I had on my circle's and to be added on, it was from my friend’s random talk

     We never went out together though, we ‘re just having a usual daily text each other, and there’s not really much happened in there. What do you expect from a 13 years old middle school brat who spent almost his everyday time just watching cartoons and playing games? Hahaha. We eventually broke up after a month cause I learn that I really had no real feelings for her. I felt guilty about it at that time, I knew what I did was so totally wrong, especially regarding people’s feelings. After we broke up, I found there was this next interesting part where we decided not to speak with each other and we didn’t want to accidentally meet by pass too, either if it's in a group project or just a quick chat in the classroom. The problem is: how would you actually do all that if you’re in the same class, trapped together with other 40 classmates students, in a 7 x 8 m2 room square, where you have to spend your time together from 7 am to 1 pm, literally almost every single day. I found that indeed very hilarious hahaha. Fast forward now, we’re in a friend relationship and still connected through social media. Sometimes I did ask her how’s she doing or just saying congratulations on her birthday. I really wish her all the best though and I hope that she could get the right person in the future.