My Growing Buddy

I don't have a green thumb neither do I know if I have planted the seed correctly, but I am okay with just waiting and seeing (or not seeing). I had some exotic seeds left and tried to follow the instructions, but I prolly made some mistake. But here is my buddy, growing with me as I go through a process of healing from a wound of my recent past.

I know that I expect way too much from myself. Just writing it some of the things down and swapping the "I hope" with "I wonder if" makes me feel lighter. I'm a little sceptical about the addition of "and if it doesn't, I will be okay." I'm trying to believe it but it's only working to a degree and only for some hopes.