Super-objective - be a successful writer
Ext goals - get over writer's block, deliver a new manuscript to her agent, find a place where she feels belonging
Inner goals - overcome self-doubt, low confidence, her constant need for validation
Relationship goals - make friends, find 'true love' (after a failed love story)

Motivation - If I fail, I prove them right (I'm stupid, I live in a fantasy world of my own). If I fail, my life is over and I go back defeated.
Now, because the pressure accumulated, the feeling I was trapped reached a peak; here, because I had to get as far away as possible - and here is quiet.