Listening to Emerlle, made me think of those days when I acted out of my subconscious.  We normally think about what to do or want with our consciousness. But sometimes, the small voice behind my mind told me to act differently. I used to suppress my feelings or emotions and smile all the time because smiling is better than acting out of my emotions. That made me become dull or almost feel nothing. Now I feel annoyed that I am smiling automatically as if a defence mechanism.

      So when I meet with my friend and let's say that they ask me what I think about their dress or something, I feel nothing and have nothing to say. I know that they look great since I can see however I don't feel like saying or I can just nod. But then just within the blink of a second something behind my mind told me to say something like they look good as if I am flattering them. after saying it, I felt like I was pretending and not myself. At the same time, I was scared of being my true self because I knew that my reaction was slow and might make me appear uninterested to my friends which is why I acted like that. My situation was similar to the gap between mind and reality just as Emrelle said.

      After listening to all the tips and lessons, I felt touched like I was kind of floating. I truly like the concept of watching yourself in the movie. Instead of feeling angry because someone provokes you, if you feel like you are watching from the sideline unfolding the situation, that would make your mind peace and calmer to deal with the situation.

Thank you for the lessons and the tips. From the lessons, I learned that I need to focus on the present as well as the person I now am and I felt peace.