I was stuck with this series of abstract paintings - at a stage where I usually get stuck and where it needs a lot of courage to go on. And maybe more knowledge about composition and focal points and such.

So this course was very interesting for me. I wanted to get unstuck. The idea of photocopying is great, but I was honestly much too lazy for that. And I've never liked painting or drawing something twice... But what I realized about my fear to continue ist that it is one of failure. And what I then realized was that failing is part of life and it really doesn't matter, especially when it's just about some pieces of paper and paint.

That made it easier to listen inside and go on and put some paint where it wanted to go.

It got easier with every layer, although I still felt fear and frustration.

There's so much to learn for life from painting this way. For me it was overcoming fear.

And while photocopying is somehow "too much" for me, I had a similar idea: I might pull a photograph of an unfinished piece into procreate on my ipad and paint over it there, just to see where I could go with it.

 

Finally finished and I love how they turned out! I'm tempted to call this series "midnight failure"