I really struggle with just going in there and painting  but I attempted to do so- but it was just awful and I really wanted to challenge myself and see if I can paint a decent face with the oil sticks  . This is also not my usual style (and I tend to paint more cats ) but I really wanted to try to do the second one in a different style as well cause i think i need to try new things in orders to learn ! 

the one with her eyes closed is the one I did with out drawing first . The one with her eyes open is the other painting I did with her eyes open I drew first , and I like it !