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Waste Your Time

I decided to sit down and write this song when I realized that I had a hard time being vulnerable with the people closest to me.

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It started out: I only come for help when I can't help myself... Then I got thinking about that line and I realized that I DO want to be vulnerable with my loved ones, but I determine not to be because I don't want to hurt them. Then as I dug deeper and got to the root of my issue it all boiled down to one line: I feel like a waste of time. Especially to my loved ones.

The song really developed from there, almost on its own. My favorite lyrics in the whole project is in the second verse where I sing: I try to avoid you if I'm being honest // I want to protect you from all of my problems // and even though you made me promise // I promised myself, first, that I'd never call you... 

I love these words so much because they're so personal and raw to me. I selfishly set aside the second verse to be so direct to myself that I'll never forget the story behind this song- even if no one else gets it or understands.

Someday, I hope to be brave enough to sing this to my friends and mentors and know that no matter what my mind tells me, I am never a waste of time. . .

Waste Your Time
by Rachel Lord

Verse one:
I hate to be the one that
Only calls When
I'm needing a fix
And I hate to be the one you
Only see when
I am looking like this

Pre-Chorus:
Cause that's not who I am
But you don't let me pretend
To be the person I'm trying to be
When I'm not myself (yeah) you know
You call me out on the tears (oh)
You can see right through me

Chorus:
But I- I don't want to waste your time
No- I don't want to burden your mind
There is just nobody else
You say that you understand
And it's alright to be the mess that I am
But I can't believe it

Tag:
Cause I don't want to waste your time, time, time
No, I don't want to waste your time, time, time
I should just step in a line, line, line
Oh I don't wanna waste your
I don't want to waste your
I don't want to waste your 
Time

Verse Two:
I try to avoid you if
I'm being honest
I want to protect you
From all of my problems
And even though you made me promise
I promised myself first that I'd never call you

Pre-Chorus:
And I must confess that I
Have fed into lies
That tell me that you don't care

Chorus:
But I- I don't want to waste your time
No- I don't want to burden your mind
There is just nobody else
You say that you understand
And it's alright to be the mess that I am
But I can't believe it

Tag:
Cause I don't want to waste your time, time, time
No, I don't want to waste your time, time, time
I should just step in your line, line, line
Oh I don't wanna waste your
I don't want to waste your
I don't want to waste your 
Time

Bridge:
I only come for help
When I can't help myself
Trying save you
By distancing me from you
I know you truly care
I just can't pressure you
Finding my way around it
But now my cards are on the table

Chorus:
But I- I don't want to waste your time
No- I don't want to burden your mind
There is just nobody else
You say that you understand
And it's alright to be the mess that I am
But I can't believe it

Tag:
Cause I don't want to waste your time, time, time
No, I don't want to waste your time, time, time
Why am I in this line, line, line? (oh)
I don't want to waste your
I feel like a waste of your 
I don't want to waste your 
Time

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