Unusual experience

Unusual experience - student project

Hi! My name is Sandra and I'm a 28 year old South African living and working in the UK for the last 3 years. I have been doing a lot of ego work over the past few months and have been working on creating that space you talk about between things that happen/your thoughts and the true self. A 'penny-drop' type moment that was very helpful for me in this process was the realisation that the aim is not actually to rid your mind of limiting/judging thoughts, but rather not the identify with them. Just because you have a thought, doesn't mean it is true or a reflection of who you are, it is just what minds do! The mind will never stop processing and conjuring up interpretations of the world around us, but we, our true selves simply do not need to add any attachment to or meaning to this, and can pick and choose to use our minds in a way that serves us- it shouldn't be the one running the show as it is merely a precious tool we have been given in this life. Once the realisation comes that thoughts can come and go without attachment or judgement, this is a really wonderful thing. I of course do not get this right all the time (or even most of the time), and often get sucked into the allure of what the calculating mind promises will be a solution/the answer, but the practice is simply to notice this, without judgement, and return to your true self whenever you realised it has happened.  

My personal experience of being with my true self, often experienced in yoga or in your exercise in this course, is this almost shapeless and formless 'being' swimming peacefully through water, like a fish. I know it sounds strange, but I feel that this 'being' is 'me' and when I am experiencing this, I simultaneously experience the swimming as well as watch it. I tend to come back to this experience often during mediation and I feel the most at peace and present when here. Not sure if this makes sense or if it is indeed my true self, but I think this is the closest I have ever gotten to experiencing just being. 

Thank you for your course, it was a great reminder of how easy it is to access something that we all have, but often just forget we do. 

Sandra xx

PS-- if anyone has had a similar experience or has anything to add to what I have said, I'd love to engage with you! Fell free to comment :) 

PPS- Also a flute player!