Trying to find my way in this nutty world

I lost something an few years back.  Not sure where it went, or how, or even when. But its hasn't been around.  Its like that homeless guy you are used to seeing everyday and then one day you realize you have not seen him in awhile.  What happened?  You make up stories to fill in the blanks because you might never know.

Since I was 12 years old, I always knew I wanted to be a Marine Biologist and live in Maui.  I felt lucky because I knew people who didn't have goals or passions.  Nothing could stand in my way.  

Then it happened.  I realized I had achieved that one thing I had always wanted.  But something happened.  The passion was gone.  It was like being in a loveless marriage that went on for too long.  Who am I kidding,  I don't even know what marriage feels like because I was so focused on my career.  My multiple degrees say I am a marine biologist but all I have to show for it is enormous student loans.  I am crippled financially.  But I did have some awesome adventures along the way.

So I am starting over again.  But where do I go from here?  I know I want to build something with my hands.  Where I can step away from it and say, hey, I made that shit. Pretty cool huh? 

What I lost, I want to find again.  But how do I know what step to take?


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