I could be so mad at my friends. It’s all their fault after all. I spent two thousand dollars and many hours to travel to the other side of the world to swim with whale sharks and now it won’t happen because they made us late. We are sitting eating breakfast at the very time people are returning with tired smiles and great videos of whale sharks. The wind picked up and all further trips are cancelled. I want to be mad but what did I expect? This always happens to me. Why even raise my anticipation when I always seem to be let down? I walked away from the group and looked out at the turquoise sea. A giant sea turtle comes up for a breath. I realized that my thoughts were clouding my ability to see and delight in the beauty around me. I started to think; what lies beyond being mad in this situation, disappointment? What is after that, resignation? And after that, acceptance and then peace? How long does that cycle take? If I stay angry or disappointed I risk losing my friendship. Satan delights in using every possible situation he can to create a wedge between people- fishers and cracks that slowly divide relationships until they break apart and drift away. So what is more important: being angry right now or my friendship? I focused on the waves rolling in and flowing out and I began praising God for the beauty I saw. I praised him for the colors and the sea turtles and the fresh sea breeze. As I did the sadness had no more room and floated away. As my friend walked up I had a smile for him.
“Joyful, Joyful, Lord we adore thee. God of glory, Lord of love. Hearts unfold like flowers before thee, opening to the sun above. Melt the clouds of sin and sadness, drive the dark of doubt away. Giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the light of day”.