Which do I struggle with the most? being plane, pilot, or engineer? in what ways?
I actually struggle with three of the stages. But to answer the question, I'll start from the least to the most stage that I struggle with. Start from being a Pilot, the reason I think that being a Pilot is the least hard because I see myself as a good planner. What I mean by a good planner is having the ability to prioritize and to recognize between things that will be beneficial to the vision and the goal in life, but I lack the ability to write down the plan. I only plan things in my head, because in the past I used to remember all the things that I need to accomplish in a day, but it changed lately because more and more things come to life, and it becomes harder to keep on track. I really want to start writing down my agenda in a day, but it never happens. I keep procrastinating, make excuses like I don't have time in the morning to write down my to-do list, or as simple as I don't know how to write it down or manifest my mind into the note.
And then being an engineer, I can evaluate, I can think out a better approach in life, how to be more efficient. The thing that makes it harder than piloting life is I rarely think about it, think about how can I do things better, I put myself more into thinking about the new things I want to do or I want to try. If I procrastinate on something I plan doing then it will be on the next level for the thing I don't even really thinking about.
Finally, the main answer to the question, being A Plane is the most challenging one. I like to procrastinate, am easily distracted, and being unfocused. Those things really are the main problems I need to fix, and also the main reason why I'm taking on this course. The other reason is currently, I'm in a job that doesn't really inspire me, this situation is making me evermore unproductive. I really hope after the course I'll able to manage my time so I can chase on something outside my jobs that will be able to inspire me or in this course mentioned as Fun factors.
What am I avoiding with the phrase "I don't have time?"
I'm avoiding my mind from making an excuse by using the phrase "I don't have time", instead of thinking about that I have to train my mind to able to manage and use the time efficiently and effectively. It's never about the time, it's only about how I use it, how I make a priority in life and take more control into the time we have.