I want to write! Let me say it again, I want to write!
The only problem is I don’t know how to write. My writing sucks, my grammar makes you wonder if I understand the English language and my spelling is horrible. Now, with all of that said, I still want to write. I just don’t want to write, I want to well. Here is the thing, I really don’t know why I want to write.
It’s a whisper in my soul, my inner GPS, that feeling tells not to go down that block at night because danger lies ahead. As much as I try to ignore over the years, it that will not go away! It keeps telling me I need to write.
My inner GPS has been my protector all these years. My gut feelings are all I had since I lost my grandmother, my protector who raised me until she died when I was age 24. When I listen to gut, I have never gone down wrong a path. It has always led in the path, certainly, with challenges and tests of life, but the lessons I learned at the end of the tests will always leave on my knees thanking a higher power for all it had to offer, good and bad.
Now I’m 45 years old and basically, I'm learning to stop giving a F$%k about the things get in my way. To trust me more. Writing is about learning, and I still want to learn. I’m curious why I keep getting these feelings about writing, so I decided I’m going to explore it.
Here the plan, I’m going to write! I’m going to ignore my fears and all my weakness as I indicated above and just go for it. I will learn how to write well. I don’t know how long it will take and when I will know something was written “well”, but I am going once again trust my gut feeling.
Wish me luck on this new journey and maybe one day I will be able to write about my gut feeling that changed my life!