I remember wanting to leave IKEA but mom was still looking around.
I remember stealing chocolate chip cookies off the cooling rack but pretending like I hadn't.
I remember remember how scared I was when I first experienced anaphylaxis.
I remember the paramedics in my parents living room helping me to breath again.
I remember a woman on the floor of Dollar General having an asthma attack.
I remember playing T-Ball & linedriving a ball into Coach Daves' nuts.
I remember kicking a boy in the leg before running away because I liked him.
I remember sitting alone in a hot tub under a full moon while playing fetch with a smelly dog.
I remember looking into a babies' blue eyes, as I cradled her itty-bitty self in my arms, and seeing the world.
I remember him standing over her, curled on the floor against the couch, with his fists balled & spit flying.
I remember walking into a strangers kitchen & the door closing before noticing the gun on his hip.
I remember mopping up a friends' vomit & helping them get cleaned up.
I remember slipping around on the trampoline while the sprinkler sprayed from below.
I remember cutting my hair in the bathroom sink and getting disappointed feedback from adults.
I remember the wooden spoon my neighbor beat her kids' asses with.
I remember faking injuries to get out of social situations.
I remember Christmases when everyone was still alive.
I remember making messy art projects & being encouraged to learn through doing.
I remember watching ants build tunnels in the sand through a clear, plastic tub.
I remember not caring about test scores and marking 'C' for every answer.
I remember wanting to live in the tree next to my house.
I remember waiting in line for a Choco Taco from the ice cream truck.
I remember someone excitedly showing me a picture of his babys' first poop.
I remember writing songs & being too shy to sing them aloud.
I remember the times I've felt the world spinning.
I remember going to friends houses where we were allowed to watch rated R movies.
I remember being blamed & shamed when a family pet ran away.
I remember learning to braid hair when I went to a church youth group.
I remember the person in my Spanish class who made me question my sexuality.
I remember a veteran telling graphic war stories to a room of 12 year olds.
I remember how it felt to be believed.
I remember the best & worst sex of my life.I remember friends' secrets I am keeping.
I remember wanting my parents to adopt me a brother from Somalia after seeing pictures of orphans.
I remember standing alone in a field of flowers with the sun on my skin.
I remember police with guns drawn outside my window.
I remember petting a wild fawn sleeping under a tree.
I remember thinking my stomach might actually explode after eating too much.
I remember the time my best friend saw my butt when I stood up in a hospital gown.
I remember being in the front row of a Donald Trump rally & not reaching out to shake his hand when he walked past me.
I remember my dad carrying me to bed when I fell asleep in moms' arms in the rocking chair.
I remember being a bully to my sister.
I remember shaving my arms once in middle school.
I remember soothing & grounding a boy to the present moment while he had an anxiety attack.
I remember kissing her under the stars at the fishing dock we snuck off to.
I remember laughing for hours with my friends who get me.
I remember crying on the phone to a friend after learning of another group of kids getting killed at school.
I remember witnessing a full-body submersion baptism at a Mormon church.
I remember giving in to pressure.
I remember walking on water in an inflatable orb.
I remember wanting dreads for seven years straight.
I remember coming out of the closet to be met with acceptance.
I remember smoking around the fire.
I remember swallowing my voice.
I remember when I wanted to look cute for other people.
I remember she had a car, and tattoos, and I was 14 and scared to hold her hand.
I remember having knives pointed at me.
I remember catching snakes & kissing them.
I remember climbing in & out of windows so I could visit a girl.
I remember taking my shirt off at the beach for the first time.
I remember when it was still fun to scare myself with horror movies.
I remember raccoons stealing our chips & eating our drugs :(
I remember climbing to the top of every playground.
I remember blood in the bathwater.
I remember my reasons to stay sober.
I remember walking face first into spiderwebs.
I remember when another student made me feel included.
I remember drawing on my hands with marker & being reprimanded.
I remember purposefully talking with my mouth full at grandmas' kitchen table because it made my sister laugh.
I remember isolating myself & hiding from the publics' view before COViD-19.
I remember being taken care of by my mother after a major operation.
I remember watching people shrink into specks from a plane window.
I remember building teepees in the forest behind my childhood home.
I remember when the flames grew out of control & we had no water to contain them.
I remember being really interested in the Holocaust & researching it as a tween.
I remember piercing my lip at 14 and feeling proud.
I remember sleeping outside in my citys' streets.I remember cutting class.
I remember feeding insects to spiders.
I remember what it's like to question my place.