Updated Jan, 21st 2013
In 2012, I lost 18 pounds, ran my first 5k (actually did 2!), and learned a lot about myself. While I'm proud of that success, it stemmed from a lack of self-confidence--I was in the middle of acnegaddeon: worst breakout of my life, which lasted for about 6 months, and was so bad I was getting comments (most trying to be helpful, but some downright rude) from customers at the retail store where I worked. I felt like all people could see was my pizza face, and I'd never had anything like this happen before, even in high school, so I had no idea how to combat how it made me feel. So I did something to make me feel hot in spite of that: Lose weight and workout.
Terrible motives, because it had a little to do with getting healthy and a lot to do with altering myself to boost my self-esteem, but with myfitnesspal and a new exercise habit, I actually did it.
Now, I've been wanting to start weight training for almost a year. However, all we have at home are an elliptical, treadmill, recumbant bike, a few dumbbells (2-8lbs) and dad's bowflex. Lots of stuff that worked alright for just learning to move and run, but not so great for my goals now. And the last 2 times I tried to get into my college's weightlifting course, I've sat on the waitlist.
So. I'm sick of waiting. Which means I have to join a gym.
I've been afraid to because:
But I still want to learn to lift and I'm sick of waiting for that class at my college! So here's my game plan:
I also want to get my nutrition in check, so I'll try to follow the program in NROLW as well. I don't know if I can easily eat as often as they suggest (5-6 times a day), but I want to learn to track macros and at least get enough protein. I'll use myfitnesspal to keep track, since I'm used to it already.
And as for the building self-confidence goal, I don't have anything specific planned at this point, besides ditching the scale. I honestly think it'll happen naturally if I just care about what I can accomplish, as opposed to what I look like. I just want to approach this with a mindset of getting stronger and overcoming fear as my goal, not, "if I fit in ___ size pants, I'll be happier about myself," which was kind of where I came from before. I was surprised that I actually stuck with the calorie-tracking and running, so I do know that when I get over the fear aspect, I can do it!!
I CAN'T WAIT!