I have the Dark Days Tarot deck created by Wren McMurdo (Guidebook by Emily Mundy). It has four directions rather than two. I pulled the four of wands turned to the left, which signifies a flurry of future plans or wavering integrity. My immediate and far future are a combination of set-in-stone and up in the air, as I know what I need to do but am unsure if I'm willing to make necessary sacrifices for what is not a sure reward.
I feel called out. And also reassured that I need to settle on my plans and commit to them.