Giving advice and insight to my past self.
Thursday, May 20, 2021
Greetings, 2015 Self,
Good news! If you are receiving this letter, you’ve managed to hang on for another almost six years! Congratulations.
You will undoubtedly be surprised to hear from me, and you might think that your thoughts about your Back to the Future birthday party later in the year have brought this on. But no.
Rest assured, you are still, pretty much in one piece as of today.
The reason I wanted to write to you is that I’ve been thinking a lot about the person I used to be and recollecting the things I experienced the year I lived by myself.
There were times of loneliness, frustration, bliss, worry, and genuine happiness.
Something I really want to tell you is that it will not be easy, living alone. You already know you can’t afford it. This is not news to you. Sure, perhaps your dad is right and a roommate would lighten the load. But other than the monetary burden, you will never (at least up until 2021 anyway) regret living alone; not asking someone else to room with you. You like calling your own shots.
You like to get up when you want to, read without being interrupted, make whatever you want for dinner. Come and go as you please… have free-reign of the dryer… it’s the simple things in life that make you happy.
One thing I can tell you is that you should enjoy it while you can, because eventually, all too soon, you will be forced to move back in with your parents. Your sister will also be back there, but she will eventually find a house and move out once again.
In late January of 2016, beware of ice and snow.
You know your 1993 (?) Chrysler LeBaron, you’ve always hated? Yeah, I know, it’s super ugly. But you’ll have a car accident and total it. You’ll be fine though. You’ll have a few scratches and a sick bruise on your arm, but you’ll be fine.
To this day, you’re still afraid of driving in snow and ice.
You’ll finally leave your call center job, helping people order pizza and training new hires to do the same. You’ll work at a computer place, full time for almost a year, then you’ll get let go, and then you’ll get hired back- but only part-time. At this point, you will begin to hate that job but still love the people.
I’m not sure if it is a stroke of luck, or if it isn’t- but you will have another bout of illness which will make it so that you cannot go back to work there.
You’ll feel crappy about it for a while, but ultimately, you’ll get over it.
Now, I feel like I should give you some advice. I know you won’t like it because you abhor getting advice. But trust me. I am you. The advice is kindly meant, and sincere.
Read while you can.
Keep writing those notes and keep writing for your various stories. You will one day finish some of them. Once Upon a Nightmare is in pretty good shape. Currently, it only wants some beta readers and an editor before perhaps doing another bout of line edits and another rewrite.
You will eventually do NaNoWriMo and while it will be hard, you will love it!
Perhaps in 2016 when you are working and making money, put some aside in a separate account and do not touch it. If you can get away with it, don’t tell anyone you have it. Then maybe when your crap hits the fan, you won’t have to rely as much on other people. I’m not telling you this to seem greedy. I’m telling you g because not being able to have financial independence will be a major annoyance later on.
When you have to move back home, please, please, I beg you- convince your folks to move that hideous furniture which does little more than take up space- to literally anywhere else but your room. Perhaps the basement, or the dumpster. Either one.
Beware of 2020- it’s a real drag. And just FYI, those headaches are probably just stress. But rest assured, they will go away eventually.
Cherish the memories you have of your Grannie because you will lose her in the summer of 2019.
You actually have a talent for interior design (you’ll find that out when you get a Skillshare membership in 2020).
In 2015, cook what you want, eat what you want, go where you want, learn what you want.
Honestly, I think that’s the best advice I can give.
Rest assured, you will have times of plenty and times of few in this period of 5-6 years, but each will teach you a valuable lesson.
I know, you’re only fond of those in hindsight.
Oh, one more thing, you will eventually get that keyboard you’ve been wanting.
I hope you found these helpful. I wish you all the best of luck.