Hello there! I'm Julien a french canadian Artist/Illustrator and here are my works! I realised doing this exercice that my inner critique has taken hold of my art and my life more times than I could count for.

I have started the exercice by writting my inner critique's words uninterrupted overlapping on the work. I will write by text to clarify and make it readable, but it felt necessary to write it by hand first. Corrected some mistakes and whatnot, english is my second language so forgive me if some sentences aren't clear.

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Here is my worst, some muscular martial-art character sketch that I just slapped some face and hair on, but the initial intention was just the body, to practice muscles and anatomy but mostly for fun. The face and hair looks like me and I hate it, I don't look like that nor do I want to, it just turned out like that.

My Best and Worst works - image 1 - student project

''Why would you even draw this?

What message is there to convey?

Your anatomy skills are horrible.

Worst part is that this monstrosity looks like YOU.

Why? Because you can't draw anyone else?

Because you're a fucking narcissist?

You were obviously just inspired after watching Baki or some other ridiculous

piece of media, how childish.

It's amazing how simultaneously try-hard and lazy it looks. Same with your

art and illustrations, really. Just give up.''

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And here is my best and proudest work, a 4' by 6' mixed-media painting I've done as a final synthesis piece for my visual-arts course in CEGEP. (college/pre-uni in Québec)

My Best and Worst works - image 3 - student project

''OOOooh Waaaaw the Fabled ''Two Infinities'' that made your art course sooo worth it you spiralled into addiction and depression.

Or was it before that? Your brain's so scrambled you can't even remember.

You got second place behind an hyper-realist artwork? And you're happy about it? You know exactly what people say about 2nd place. Get real, people only pitied you looking at the mess you've made. There's no coherence, no grace, it's rubbish, you definitely deserve to be loser in first.

Hyper-realism is way beyond your capacity, you don't even have interest for it since you're so childish.

OoOoOh you were inspired by some philosopher that everyone else learned about in the first philosophy class every cegepian had to read through, how so so very deep and original. The last synthesis piece and you chose something you saw in class that inspired you, it's not even that deep, you still couldn't even express your own thoughts, probably because you're obviously so shallow.

Or maybe you chose the easy way out because you were tired of hearing every art teacher tell you that you never push your thoughts and intentions deep enough.

You had the whole semester to do it and you just botched it in the last two weeks, fuelled by an excessive amount of weed, alcohol and caffeine. Fucking shameful, undisciplined and lazy.

You didn't even document it properly, even the teachers forgot. That's how forgettable your art is. You sold it for half the price you should've sold it for, even though you wanted to keep it, just because you listened to your teacher.

Weak minded, weak willed.'' -Bo

I named them Bo, short for Boris I guess but mostly just Bo like the stick in martial-arts, hits hard and reaches far. It's a big part of myself that I haven't tamed yet but wish to put in it's place.

Thank you so so much Lucy for this class, it opened my eyes and mind.

I already feel more at peace and aware of this part of myself.

Julien Dufresne

Artist & Illustrator

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