I am going to Re-Learn painting, drawing, and creative skills I lost from getting a brain injury. I was in a car crash. It affected my ability to paint for 20 years. Instead I learned pottery, glass fusing and then wood burning, which got me back to drawing and then painting. I am also going to learn new skills. I enjoy finding new outlets to be creative in. I have a hard time remembering it so I have to be constantly creating to remember what I am doing.

I will do either one skillshare class a day or also read art books. As well as take a few classes from another online art teacher. Then I will do the project and put it up here. I will also be putting any new skills I learn in a notebook, then maybe I will be able to remember them.

To celebrate I will dance with my husband.

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For July, 25, 2020

I took a class about drawing eyes, nose and mouths from one of the lovely art teachers on Skillshare. Emily Armstrong. I had to do it in two days not one.

I learned quite a few new things, and remember things from another teacher I had in grade 9 and 10.

We tend to draw what we know not what we see. We simplify our drawings. She got me to draw what I see not what I know. When sketching and shadowing do light, medium and dark.

When I was younger I used to draw what I saw and never simplified anything, but I also never knew when to quite. I would draw every line, shadow or spot I saw.

When I tried to draw from my mind I couldn't do it. I needed to see everything and I couldn't get it all out of my mind. If I drew something and it was missing something I felt like I was doing it a disservice. I never felt it was perfect because I always saw something missing.

NowI never think I'm perfect because of the brain injury I miss things. What I haven't figured out is how to stop trying to be perfect and instead just enjoy the process. Like I did in grade 9 and 10.

I had a very good art teacher as she didn't care if I drew everything. She tried hard to get me to just get the feel of things. To get the shape of it, and let me be me. Even if the colours were darker then others she didn't care.

She saw that I was trying to draw everything and was not enjoying it. Only getting frustrated. She would say that my detail was amazing but I needed to get the feel and shape first.

Drawing all the detail and shading brought it back, including the trying to be perfect. This is what I took from all of it.

*Number one thing to learn detail is everything and nothing at all. Just depends on what you do.

*Be you, don't be perfect, and make Happy little mistakes.

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July 25th, 2020

For drawing noses I learned a lot. There is line work but do it in less detail as you use shading more. The shading is more important as it brings it out more from the paper. Start drawing from the middle. Highlights are usually in bridge of the nose. Shadows are either side of it.

For drawing Mouths I learned that they have less lines, more detail in shading as well. Make sure you do the shape of the middle line in the lips. Use straight lines then connect to make the curves. Doing the midline right gives you the right expression. Start from the middle. Make sure it's sketch with light lines. Don't draw a dark outline for the lips. Use shading and the outline should only be as dark as it will be shading.

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July 26th, 2020

Today I woke up with a migraine. It was not a good day either. I was watching another Emily Armstrong class when I passed out. Since the accident when I get migraines I pass out. Literally I'm talking or watching something, learning and then it's all black.

Unfortunately it scares my husband. Scares me too. Then family stuff happened that really stressed me out and upset me. I was unable to do the class.

I've decided on migraine days to do classes that are no more the 20 minutes. Even then it's a bit much but I can't stop.

Ever since I started to sell my artwork or give it to people it made them happy. Which in turn makes me happy. Being happy is hard when what you used to be is no more and you are just now accepting who you are now.

I'm just forever grateful I found a husband who loves me now. Who supports me to be happy.

I've had quite a few jobs but nothing beats the feeling of creating something that touches someone else's soul.

July 27th, 2020.

Another migraine day for me. So I decided to do a short class and the one I missed yesterday. It's another Emily Armstrong class. She's a lovely teacher. I'm learning so much about drawing and line making. I'm sure I've learned it before but I didn't quite learn it the way I am doing it now.

It was fun seeing what the lines were doing with the pencil. I've found that when I make loose lines they are never straight. I also found that it's hard for me to hold me pencil lightly.

I know one day I won't be able to use my right hand to draw as one of my nerves in my neck is being squished. That could be why I have such a hard time doing light pencil strokes.

It was very hard to not take my pencil off the paper. It kind of hurt my arm afterwards. That happens a lot. Took me a little while to do the second drawing. Doing light lines is very hard for me. I had to make the darker lines even darker than normal so that the others would appear lighter.

My husband decided we needed a break and we visited my Dad and Stepmom. We had a lovely time. That was how we celebrated today. Oh and he brought me sushi. It's my favorite.

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July 28th, 2020

I took a class by Chole Rose today. She's a youtuber I follow and she got me to come here and learn. So I needed to take one of her classes. I decided to do the watercolour galaxy. It was a fun class.

I learned how to add white watercolour to other colours. I had a hard time doing that before. I always seem to paint everything so darkly coloured. Might be just how I see the world. For that reason at first I didn't like my painting, but now every time I look at it I love it more.

I also liked doing the highlights with acrylic paint. It's what I am most comfortable using.

The painting took me longer than usual because my husband is so sick today. I'm checking on him constantly. He loved the painting from the get go and is so supportive.

Tomorrow if my husband is better we are going to dance twice. Today he is buying me the Sims 4 stuff pack, Knifty Knitting. I really love that game and it's how he can celebrate with me.

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July 29th, 2020.

Today I took a class by Alison Kolesar about painting rocks. I learned that the rock needs to be smooth, not rough and definitely not polished. I really like the idea of leaving painted rocks for people to find. A few years ago I was having a very stressful day and found a rock with a calming message that helped me.

Today I went out of my comfort zone in acrylics and tried to paint something from my mind. It didn't come out exactly like in my mind, but I am happy my husband likes it. It was for him. I wanted him to feel better. He is still sick.

I made hearts, one because I love my husband and the rock said hearts as there was one already carved into it. I just need to varnish the rock to keep it the way it is. Next time I might paint a sunset over a beach or an animal. Two things I am good at painting.

After this my husband and I are going to play The Sims. Knifty Knitting here we come.

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July 30tth, 2020

I took the class Improve your Writing Using Imagery to Create Immersive Poetry by Daren Colbert.

This class was very outside my comfort zone. I am not used to learning this way. I do love writing as well as writing poetry, but the style of class was so very different.

I learned about similes and metaphors. As well as concreate details. I already love writing free verse poems. I have trouble with rhymes. They are not my strong point.

Today my husband is a little better. We are going to cap our celebration to one dance. He's been learning how to code games. I'm very proud of him. The last few days he's had time off. When he was learning I would yell "whoohoo" and he would look at me funny. I'd tell him I was celebrating his learning and he would laugh. I can't wait to do that again.

Velvet in the moon. By Angelina Duvall Cameron

The piano plays happily. Lighting cracks and thunder rolls. A woman screams like a Banshee. The lights go out and brings death to the room.

Still the piano plays bringing light into the room. The smell of smoke permeates the air. Wisping around the singer and the musicians.

Lights are still out, and the crowd starts murmuring like children on a bus. A voice floats through the air like velvet in the moon. Silence erupts immediately.

The piano now plays seductively like a woman looking for a man. Velvet continues to stroke the air with its sound.

The lights come on. No one is on stage. The crowd gasps in unison while the last seductive notes fill the air of a time gone by.

July 31st, 2020

Today was a happy accident. I decided to do a class for the 100 day challenge by Rich Armstrong because well it's only fair.

I didn't realize I would be doing this class for ten days. It's very helpful and looks fun. Some of the words look hard. I'm going to look them up.

I think I'm going to doodle the word Gorget. This is going to be hard. I've got to find a small notebook to draw in. Also using Ink as the rules said. It's not my favorite drawing utensil. Wish me Luck.

My husband likes the drawing. He wondered how I did it so fast. So do I.

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August 01, 2020

I like bringing out my Innerchild. They are always so happy to see anything new. I miss be excited for the smallest things. Joy is important to have in your life.

I looked up all the words that I didn't know. Those words didn't say draw me. Madbrained did. Mostly because it reminds me of a good friend. She had a brain injury too. She used to call what we have as Drain Bamage. It would make us laugh. As adults we can get joy out of the weirdest things.

My husband really liked that I gave my guy strips. He always loves what I do. I do. I sometimes wonder how I got so lucky.

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August 02, 2020

I find that I'm much better at thinking or creating at night time or late afternoon. I am definitely not a morning person.

I looked up all the words I didn't know. Today I chose a word that I saw in my head. Of course I'm not sure it came out very well, but it was fun to do none the less.

My husband wasn't so sure what the doodle was so I should him what I meant. He likes it still. Today to thank him fo liking my stuff I'm going to make his favorite character in the sims. That way he'll have fun playing him.

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I'm not liking drawing with Ink. Not used to it all. Also yes I'm not liking making mistakes even if they are happy. So I'm going to keep using Ink. I want to find the Happy mistakes I always hear my Dad's voice in my ear telling me no mistakes. Then I hear Bob Ross' "Happy Little Mistakes." I know the one I want it to be, but more than not it's my Dad's voice I hear again.

Again looking up words that at one time I may have known but don't know anymore. I also made it a mistake and fun. Well I tried anyways.

My husband loves my Doodles. He loves my fine art too. Which makes him Mr. Man in my books.

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I really hate failure. I do it a lot. The 100 day challenge is a fun new thing to try. I've been having a hard time keeping up with the sharing on my 100 day challenge as well as the doodle project. My migraines are not making it easy. Also personal business isn't helping.

I looked up all the words I didn't know. Today I chose the word Rhadamanthas as I used to Roleplay a Greek Goddess. It was fun.

My husband thought that this one was cool. We decided to chill out for the rest of the day watching movies on Netflix.

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I love blank Canvases because when you look at them all you see is potential. Also I love looking at them just because it makes me excited to do them.

Again looking up the blank words I don't know was fun. A lot of them I had no idea about their meanings.

My husband is still sick today. So I showed him my Doodle and it made him smile. All I need to see. I love his smile.

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My brain is definitely overweight and lazy. This is working it out big time. I'm having a lot of fun looking up the words.

I chose Sinistrality as my husband is that. I was trying to make the doodle look like him. I also made a mistake but my husband helped me fix it.

It's a good thing my husband loves me otherwise he might have taken offense at my mistake instead of helping me. He's still not great but he is getting better at not being confused at the word doodle. He looks them up with me.

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I've had times when I would sleep on a problem and wake up with a solution an they worked. One helped my cat stay alive for a long time. Purring and Cat smiling at me.

Looking up both words was hard to figure out at first. Began to figure it out after a little bit. The words I chose reminded me off my husband and I's favorite dective "Monk." It's a really good show.

To celebrate my husband and I watched a lot of our new favorite show, "Superstore." We both love to laugh and that can sure make us laugh, cry, and feel part of a really good show.

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Yesterday, I missed Doodle class as well as another day in the 100 day challenge. It was very stressful. Some personal business happened that took a lot of my time. It is causing me to have difficulty putting in the words and photos online. Going to get to it as soon as I can. Too much going on right now but I am doodling almost every day!

Today I wanted to create just to get de-stressed. I made a galaxy pitcure with pencil and a highlighter to give to a friend. She liked it. Even though I was unsure. I also did something for my husband. He loved it. One of his favorite drawing/doodling I have done yet. Mostly because it has our baby girl in it. We miss her.

Yesterday we watched rom-com movies to help calm me down. Today to celebrate we watched more Superstore and my husband cooked supper. He's too good for me.

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I am liking the weird, silly doodles I am making. Mostly because that is who I am. I like weird. For instance my favorite movies are "The Addams Family, and Pretty Woman.

I looked up all the words today. It was tricky figuring them out. I chose Uninominal Sundrops. Then I doddled my favorite Sun. It was considered a thing when I was 16. Which made me laugh. I'm not sure how that was considered cool. Then I tried others so that they could be in other worlds, leaving little sundrops all over the place.

My husband loved my very old sun that's been with me since I was 16. I was surprised I could still draw him. My husband has good taste. He is slowly feeling better to me that is the best.

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I think I am going to do words every day just for fun. I like looking them up. I did a doodle while the internet wasn't working. It was small and very quick. My variation is I am only going to doodle for 2 minutes.

That was way to quick for me. I think from now on it will be more like five minutes everyday just to doodle a word or words. Just because I want to although if I miss a day of the 100 day challenge I won't be to hard on myself. I am learning to go with the flow.

My husband asked me what that was when I showed him. I laughed and told him a 2 minute doodle. Tonight it will be more "Superstore" and games.

I had fun with this class. Thank you.

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Today was not a good day for me personally. I was just trying to help my husband with something and literally felt myself going into a blackness. He asked me something and I was rude back. That is not normally me and I didn't like the feeling at all.

Since I wasn't able to do class I'm continuing the last class I did before.

Two words popped in my head that sounded funny. They were diamond patch. So here it is.

My husband asked if I needed more diamonds. I told him no, more dances when I am feeling better.

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I think there is one heck of a storm coming. My migraines are back. Today wasn't the best day for anything. I slept most of today. Couldn't get up much at all.

I did decide to do a play on words today. Instead of Winter wonderland I did Winter Wonder Bar.

Mostly because my husband's favorite season is Winter. My husband's favorite part is the bar. Simply because of the play on words. Mine too.

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Today was another sick day. I really wish the storm would get here soon. Please hurry up. I need a rest from my head.

At one point my husband wanted me to feel better. I took advil and it actually worked. We watched a movie. It was a rom-com. Shhhh!!!

Today all I can remember is "Get on your feet!" So here we are.

No dance from my husband. Instead loads of kisses and cuddles.

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The pain is even worse today. When the storm hits it's going to be a big one. Not a good day for my Husband or me either. We are both under the weather.

Decided today on Double Dealing.

The storm hit late tonight. Really late.

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The storm just doesn't want to stop. Lot's of lightening and it's very close to the house. My head still hurts. I don't think it's going away anytime soon. I once had a doctor tell me that if I got a job these migraines would go away. I had a job, and no it didn't. Off topic, sorry.

My husband is not really well and neither am I. This is not helping me to get anything on the computer.

I chose Inveigh which is to protest strongly or attack vehemently with words.

Right now I chose what everyone is protesting about because of how strong a message that is.

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My head feels better today, but only because I overslept. Not sleeping well the last two days was bad.

I chose a word from rom-com movies, kind of. "Quixotry." Yes it's a word and a good one for Scrabble. I am not sure I got the right meaning from it.

My husband likes it. Today anything that makes him smile is good. I think another storm is on it's way. Either that or I am tired.

August 18th, 2020

Decided to do the class, "Writing for Inner Calm" By Dani Shapiro. It's a nice class.

This is going to be interesting to see what I remember for this class. I'll need to get a book for this everyday too. Something more fun to do as well as Doodling.

Excerise: I Remember the smell of Sunshine and freshly mowed grass.

I Remember laying on the grass and looking up into the sky all summer. It dyed my hair white blonde all year.

I Remember the calming sound of paint hitting canvas creating something so beautiful it took my breath away.

I Remember yelling and me hiding in my toy box.

I Remember running away from the Goonies movie and our family getting kicked out of it. Was I too young?

I Remember watching NASA and the rocket ship blowing up. It had me crying for days.

I Remember coming home from school sneaking down into the basement and putting on Bob Ross. No one else in the family wanted to watch it.

I Remember the sound of Bella's meows. My baby never stopped telling me what was what.

I Remember putting my face on Bella's side and smelling her scent.

I Remember the sound of kids playing outside never being in fear for their lives.

It seems to me that skillshare has me doing things to make my life better and more creative. I really think that I needed that. My husband is going to watch the class with me tomorrow. I think it might help him too.

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August 19, 2020

Today was not a good day. Migraine again. I'm so glad it's just migraines now. Right after the accident I had constant pain in my head. Some days it got so bad I would punch the floor or even cement roads and sidewalks to make it stop. I've got to remember that and just fight through my pain.

Today I chose the words Bee Gone. Mostly because we had a bee in our kitchen. That's the second one in a month and it tried to attack me.

My husband is deathly allergic to bees. We got to find it as soon as possible. Maybe it left as I screamed and it went behind the stove.

Side note: Bee was found August 21, 2020 dead.

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August 20, 2020

I suck today, Today sucked. It rained all day and I slept all day. No class, not even a Doodle. I'm sorry.

August 21, 2020.

Class I'm taking is Introduction to Making Poems, by Cameron Conaway.

Theme is "Remembering"

I was in a car crash and received a minor brain injury, (TBI). I have trouble remembering what I did yesterday or where I put my stuff. Before the accident I didn't study a lot other than math problems because I read it once and remembered.

Threads are: Those I lost and those I love. The fact that I forget a lot. I used to have perfect memory.

Small Noticing's:

1. I can't remember where I put my mask but I remember going to school and liking being able to go home for lunch.

2. I can't remember what I did two days ago but I remember playing hide and seek with my dog.

3. My Grandpa died not long ago. I can barely see his face in my eyes.

4. My Grandma died almost 30 years ago. The moment I saw Jack Nickolson's wife die in that movie I bawled. She looked like Grandma.

5. My husband loves coffee, computer games and me.

6. Remembering what I did last week is hard. Even important things I know I should. Instead of remembering I need people to tell me, yet I still can't see it in my head.

7. I can remember the first time I went to school. Even down to what I was wearing.

8. Whenever I encounter a scent that is familiar I try to remember why.

9.How does my husband deal with my forgetfulness. I hate it.

10. I miss my cat. She was with me for 20 years. You'd think I could see her in my minds eye. All I see is a form of a cat and blurriness.

11. I fear not remembering what my husband looks likeif he dies before me. That would be a travesty. I love his smile.

12. Sunshine I love the look and feel of it on my skin.

13. Remembering childhood is wonderful.

14. Loving my husband is my life.

15. Forgetting is so scary.

Poetry Tools: I am unsure of what I used. I can't remember them all.

Poems:

Poem 1: Scary

Forgetting is hard.

Remembering is much better.

Why mess with your brain?

Poem 2: Forever

The sound of silence in your head is deafing.

Why can't I remember where it is?

I want to cry and scream and throw a fit.

Yet that won't help me find it.

Why is it so hard to remember, where I put it two minutes ago.

Yet my mind can pull up a memory from twenty years ago.

Can't my mind work?

No it won't anymore.

All because I hit my head in a car.

If only stays with me forever....

Poem 3: Grandma's Garden

What is that scent I smell?

I've smelt it before.

Smells like happiness. Why?

From where?

From who?

It's on the tip of my tongue.

Still not coming out and the scent is leaving.

Oh, I know Grandma's Garden.

Full of Mud-Pies and Love.

Poem 4: I Love You

I'm looking at my husband again.

Does he notice?

No.

Good.

Still looking.

I smile and soak in my love.

Never want to forget him.

What happens if I do?

Please No!

It would break our hearts.

Shoot I'm caught.

Look away, don't cry.

He'll worry.

What could you say to make it better?

I Love you!

Poem 4: Where's that Photo?

I miss my cat.

She was my baby.

Where's that photo?

There she is.

How could I forget that beautiful cat smile?

Who would want to.

My warrior girl.

Always at my side.

Where is she?

Oh yeah.

She's dead!

I miss my cat.

She was my baby.

Where's that photo?

August 22, 2020

Mini Class Flash Fiction "How to tell Pint Sized Stories," by Benjamin Samuel

Rules: No Rules, One Rule "Keep it Short." Under 1000 words "Butt in chair," just get there.

The air was so strong you could cut it with a knife. The town folk were out in droves, lined up for ice-cream. It is right at the beginning of town. A car came screeching into town. Almost going through a red light.

All the people out and about let out a collective gasp. The light turned green and the car again moved too fast into a parking space.

A woman tumbled out. Her hair glistened red in the sunlight. Her clothes were very fashionable but the town folk thought she had low morals. Walking across the street she too got in line.

"Hey I'm Ambrosia. Just moving in to town. I heard this is the best ice cream place around."

Shelby the woman closet to Ambrosia and put her nose in the air. "It it. Who actually sold their house. Can't believe they would sell you anything!"

Ambrosia's smile spoke volumes before her voice did. Even her eyes flashed dangerously.

"My Aunt just died. I inherited her house. Since you were her closest neighbour Shelby, why did you take so long to visit her?"

Shelby said nothing. Just ran out of line into the street. Getting hit by another car speeding through town.

The towns folk all ran to see how she was. Ambrosia watched from the sidelines. An evil smile spread across Ambrosia's face.

The End!

August 23, 2020

Continuing of Mini Class, "Let's Go on Adventure"

I didn't really watch the next segment. I'm going by the title. When I'm done I'll watch it. Hard Today. Lost sight in my eye. Rainbow Colours all I saw. My migraines have changed drastically. Never had these kind before. Anyhow this is what I wrote.

Sarah ran over to Todd. She tapped him on the shoulder and waited until he turned around.

"Todd follow me."

"Why?"

"No questions, just follow me. It's called an adventure!"

"What is that?"

"I told you no questions. Just follow!"

"Okay."

Sarah grabbed Todd's hand and pulled him alongside her as she ran. They ran over to the slide. Up the ladder down the slide. Over to the rocks and bushes not far away. They then walked over each rock never touching the ground.

Once at the end they made their way back to the beginning by crawling under the bushes. Popping up out of the bushes they ran over to Sarah's mom. She had a blanket on the ground with plates and food.

"So Sarah, Todd how was your adventure?"

"Mom we ran into so many bad guys. There was dinosaurs, alligators, snakes, dragons and more. Todd slayed them all!"

Todd blushed and sat down. "Let's eat Princess Sarah! They all began to eat so nothing was left but silence and a frog watching it all.

The end.

August 24, 2020

Continuing of Mini Class: Another Stranger Comes to Town

Again wrote only by the title. I should watch the class and learn. Just hard to read and see again. Rainbow messed up eyes. Here it is.

Ambrosia was getting very annoyed. She visited this town and her Aunt most of her life. Yet the town folk still treated her like she was a stranger. She'd been living in town for well over 6 years now. This was the last straw.

"Antony I know you think it's fun to have a get together with just the townies. You could have invited me too. I've been living here on and off all my life. I'm not a stranger."

Antony looked up at Ambrosia. So did everyone at the table. None looked shocked, surprised or guilty.

"Ambrosia honey, you come here everyday. We weren't hiding from you. Nor was this party made to be without you. Nor was this party made to be without you. It's a surprise birthday."

"Surprise," they all yelled.

"Oh, was all she could say. She sat down with a bump and a sigh.

"Sorry."

"Hey now that is a stranger. He looks lost. Should we help him guys?"

"No, he's a tourist!" They all said in unison.

Then they laughed. It was party time and that was what they did.

I messed up and should of watched it before I wrote this. Soo... this is what I should have done.

You're a tourist, get lost. #tourist.

August 25, 2020 I remember from previous class.

Let's see what I remember today. How much and how well. It's hard for me to search. I used to see images when I remembered. Now they are blurry and sometimes there is no images. Just how I felt or what I smelt. Due to that issue I scrapbook like crazy. It makes me feel safer. Yet I can't pull out my memory pictures from last week. I really hate the difference in photos. But scents from last week , well I can't forget. Another rainbow eye day. Not sure if it's better than not seeing anything but white.

I remember playing on the computer. It was a city building game. I was so excited to create something. I got a business marketing degree. Why because that's only what my father would pay for. All I got from that was retail jobs.

I remember working at a bookstore. That was the best job ever.

I remember the sounds of waves crashing as I tried to go to sleep. Aunt Bea's cottage was the best summer vacation ever.

I remember walking down the dirt road and walking into bushes to pick strawberries, or raspberries. Wild ones tasted the best. My bowl was never full, but my stomach was.

I remember watching out for snakes.

I remember never not screaming when I saw a snake at Aunt Bea's cottage.

I remember the smell of Autumn. Why is it so comforting?

I remember playing the fishing game on our computer. The first time I saw the skeleton I screamed.

I remember the taste of golden raspberries. Even better than red.

August 26, 2020. I Remember from Previous Class

When will the storm come? Still having rainbow eyes. At least it's not passing out time. Although I took a nap. Just have to get through it. It's raining bad today. Why did I still have rainbow eyes? At least I get to see fun colours. When I only had the not seeing anything but white, it scared me so much more.

I remember the sounds of crickets and grasshoppers on a summer's night.

I remember loving grade seven because I got to read a lot and say it was homework. Eighty Books.

I remember the sounds of Doom. I was always mad when I played that game. Killing stuff calmed me down.

I remember going to Grandma's and Grandpa's house for Christmas. Grandma's dinner always smelled heavenly and I felt at home.

I remember looking at my closet door handle because I couldn't sleep. Then when I was asleep the door handle became a world eating bug.

I remember eating a mudpie and not liking the taste. I believed my cousin. She ate one to.

I remember being so small and watching an ant. For some reason I picked it up and put it in my mouth. I felt a pinch and a weird taste.

I remember waking up out of a dead sleep and singing to a Bon Jovi song on the radio. I also remember Dad yelling at me to shut up. Can't blame him now.

I remember Benji always looking for me. Miss him.

August 27, 2020 Previous class I remember

The storm is gone so why did I still have Rainbow eyes? I'm getting way annoyed. This is just too much. Could it be from lack of sleep? I really winder about it. Anyhow just to be safe one more day of I remember. For a celebration we got Sims 3 medieval times.

I remember telling my mom to put a coat on when I was three.

I remember trying to read mom's books when I was five. By seven it was a reality. Since they were romance novels not sure I should have read them.

I remember the first time I created a drawing, that I was proud of. I was so frustrated that I couldn't do it at first. My cousin Racheal came and talked to me. She said I could just have to believe. I did and it was amazing. Where did that go?

I remember watching coloured lights on a Christmas tree and thinking they were the most beautiful thing on earth.

I remember eating Old Grandad's Chips.

I remember eating peach candy.

I remember wearing jeans that felt so comfortable I never wanted to take them off. Didn't care that they had holes because they were for painting.

I remember Ice fishing with Dad and pulling the rod so hard it hit Dad's face. Knocking his glasses off.

I remember Dad and Bob loosing the ice-hut as the thaw came to fast.

August 28, 2020 Drawing Whimsical faces with your non dominant hand and paint one. Cristina Panaet

This is going to be hard. I want to learn how to do this because eventually I will not be able to draw or use my normal hand. Hopefully this will help train my other hand. Wish me luck. It's going to be hard so I will do each part of the class for one day. I have to skip the first one and go back because I don't have a roller ball pen. I will look for one arounf town. Also will have to look for Posca markers. Do not think I will find them but if not I will use womething else for both.

OMG I did it. That's how I use to write and draw after my accident. Maybe I can train my other hand doing wood-burning too. That's how I re-trained my normal hand to be able to draw and paint. My Hand does hurt, but still I'm so excited.

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August 29, 2020 Continuation of last class

Today I jumped to coloured pencil. I still don't have a roller ball pen or posca markers. Will see what I can find tomorrow. Today was a rainy bad day. No rainbow eyes, just bad day in general.

This was fun but still hurts the hand. Hard to do but I think it's wonderful. Painting with non-dominant hand sounds hard but fun. Can't wait.

Today my left hand was less shaky. I'm in shock and loving it.

I really like this class. For celebration my husband and I played the Sim's Medieval. I like the story line to it.

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August 30, 2020

Today I jumped to Painting the face part one. No one in town has Posca Markers. I think I will get a different kind from the scrapbook store. They are similar but cheaper. We will see what they are like on Monday. It also has the pen's I need. They closed early today.

I painted with my non-dominant hand. A few times I was bad and switched to my dominant hand today. Still had fun and enjoyed the fact I can use both hands. Also no rainbow eyes.

I do know it confused me a lot. Still I am always confused about right and left because of my dry-cleaning job everything was backwards. Today it's more Sims.

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August 31, 2020 Continuation

Today we used watercoloured pencils to add to the painting. Of course I wanted it to look pretty so I used my right hand more that left. IT was fun and definitely not something I am used to. I don't draw or paint people well.

I'm pretty impressed. Wonder what we are doing tomorrow. I will have to just use a different pen and scrapbook markers for the other classes. My husband likes it. We played Sims 4 and I helped him make a McDonalds.

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September 1, 2020 Continuation

Today was more fixing up the painting with Watercolours and Posca Markers. I just used watercolour pencils and that's all.

I wanted it to look pretty so only used my right hand. I'm impressed wuth myself actually. Can't wait until tomorrow.

My husband liked it. So that's good. Didn't realize it kind of looks like me. My husband thought I did it on purpose. If only, lol. Today we Sims 4 and I helped him make a hospital.

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September 2nd, 2020

Today it was draw with a roller pen. Boy was I shaky. Still I could have done much worse. I think it was less shaky then my first one, but not as good as the second one.

I interrupted my husband singing country songs to see if he liked it. He nodded and went right back to his favorite song. lol

Anyhow we are going to watch one of my favorite tv shows to celebrate, after we sing some more country songs.

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September 3rd, 2020

Today made me sad. It is the last lesson in this class. I am going to look for more classes like this one so I can take them. So I can train my hand for later.

I wasn't so shaky today. Today the marker seemed the easiest to hold. I loved painting in this course but had to use my right hand more. I really need to use my other hand more to get it less shaky. That will be the only way to fix it.

I need to lie down before I pass out. Depending on how bad the migraine is I will wake up later or sleep the rest of the day. If I wake up I will play the Sims.

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September 4tth, 2020

Today I am doing the class, "Find my Art Style by Ria Sharon." It is a timed section for only 30 minutes. I think I take longer to do my art. There are five sections and I will do each section for the next five days.

I had to straighten out what I wrote in the comments of my book as it didn't make a lot of sense I had a migraine. Fixed what I could.

My husband liked the drawing. I need to lie down before I pass out again. Must mean more storms are coming.

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September 5th, 2020

Today I did the sketch and had 6 minutes left to spare. I'm thinking I might take longer to draw with pencil then with watercolour pencils.

I'm not sure about how it looks now but I am still having fun doing the class. I am unsure of my art style still.

I'm learning as I go. My husband liked it. He's not well today. We are just going to watch Youtube videos and enjoy each other's company.

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September 6th, 2020

Today for class we had to look at the photo for 1 minute. Then we had to sketch it from memory and do whatever colour palette we want. I used acrylic paints.

I wasn't happy with what came out. My memory remembered what was there but not how it looked. I hate my memory. It is so much more worse then trying to get things out of my memory as a teenager.

My husband thinks it's good. I love him. We are going to play the Sims.

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September 7th, 2020

Today we got to do a word prompt. The word was "Full" I drew my cat Styxx. Wasn't quite done. Would of liked to have done a bit more shading. Still I think it's my favorite one. Took the full 30 minutes to do what I have done.

I'm not liking the time restraint. Maybe because I am always slow from trying to be perfect. I'm working on not worrying about that. It's very hard. I think it's ingrained into my mind a lot. Even though I'd prefer to love happy mistakes.

My husband loves this one to. I think he loves all of my work. Even with the happy little mistakes.

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September 08, 2020

Today we could make a sketch of anything you want. I decided to do a sketch of still life photo I took of a special flower.

Unfortunately I wasn't able to finish it in 30 minutes, so I took a two photos of it for the class. I will only show the finished portion here. It actually took 1 hour to finish. I used watercolour pencils and pencil. I love to paint with acrylic paints, watercolours, and watercoloured pencils. Going to learn as much as I can.

My husband thought I was taking a picture of the photo not the painting I did. He was very shocked and surprised. Made me laugh when I told him that was what I painted and sketched. He didn't believe at first. Tomorrow is special. You'll see by what I will do.

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September 9th, 2020

So today is our second wedding anniversary. I looked at what we are supposed to give for the second anniversary online. It was something made with cotton or wood. I saw pictures of things you can buy online and decided to do one of them myself. It isn't a class but was still something online. Hopefully it will work for this workshop.

I hand sewed two pillows. My husband had to wait until the end of today to get his gift. I couldn't sew them before today as he would have known what they were before our special day. I made two of them because one is for the house and the other is for him to take it with him when he goes outside.

We had Chinese food for supper as the other restaurant we wanted to go to, had closed down for good because of Covid 19. The food was great. My husband gave me a garnet necklace and tried to get certain flowers but they weren't in season. Instead he bought me beautiful red roses. It was a lovely day.

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September 10th, 2020

Remembering from a previous class.

Today I did not get any sleep. I'm not feeling good so I decided to do a very special remembering in terms of my husband. Hopefully you enjoy it.

I remember the clanging of the bell and a stranger walking into the store. He had an awesome hat on. He looked sad. I wanted to make him smile.

I remember playing scrabble at our bookstore. Well only because we met there. The smell of coffee hits my nose and I saw a ghost of a smile hit that stranger's face. It's stunning.

I remember teaching him how to draw and paint. Our favorite class was throwing paint off of the brushes.

I remember the first time he tried wasabi. I had told him not to put too much on. He didn't listen and drank up all the water pretty fast.

I remember us going to writing club. I always loved to listen to what he wrote. Only once he read it himself. He's so imaginative.

I remember Bella climbing into his lap the first time she was feeling well again. That is important.

I remember getting him one of his special hats. He looks so good with that on. His eyes pop.

I remember the time he asked me to fix a pocket in his coat. I looked at the rip in the coat and wondered why it looked like someone had cut it. I asked and he ran out of the bookstore instead of talking to me.

I remember when he asked me to marry him. My heart jumped and I wasn't sure what he said was true. I said yes though.

September 11th, 2020.

Today I am still not feeling that great. So I'm going to do more remembering. Hope all is well with everyone else.

I remember the first time I saw Styxx sit in front of Bill and not hiss. That's really important. Styxx doesn't trust men from abuse but he trusts Bill.

I remember when we first went to church together. The sun would hit Bill's hat just right to show it off. This feels right.

I remember when we talked to the reverend about his beliefs. He made me feel safe to go there and Bill looked happy.

I remember the first time I had a migraine and passed out on Bill. He seemed so calm when I woke up. That makes me feel safe and not like a weirdo.

I remember Bill always wanting to help my sore feet. Those massages are great.

I remember Bill laughing so hard at Mrs. Brown's Boys. He definitely is a keeper. He has a wonderful laugh.

I remember how proud he made me from anything he drew or painted.

I remember how fast Bill picked up knitting. He makes me feel in awe of him. He was beautiful what he knitted.

I remember the first time I asked him a math question. He knew the answer. I didn't. He's so smart.

I remember talking about everything and anything. It's so easy to talk to him. That's a good thing.

September 12th, 2020

26 Art therapy Exercises with Drawing and Painting and Crafts.

I want to learn about Art Therapy. For quite a few reasons so here we go. I might do one of the classes or two or three depending on my head and time management. So here I go. Today is Exercise 1 and 2. I drew my emotions today, for Exercise 1. It's powerful to me.

Going to make something for my husband again for Exercise 2. Going to think of it soon.

I made him one of the Christmas ornaments for my husband. I was given the materials and enjoyed making it. It looks like one of the older ornaments people made way back when. My favorite kind of ornaments. My husband loved it. Thought it was cute.

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September 13, 2020

Today I did four Exercises. The first one was Exercise #3. Called Meditative Mind. I used regular Pencil Crayons and it was very relaxing to do.

The second Exercise was Exercise #4. It was called My Favorite Time. I didn't have any catalogues to cut up so I drew it with pencil crayons. It is spring that is my favorite time.

The third Exercise I did was Exercise #5. It was called Unnatural Colour. Again I used pencil crayons for drawing our favorite animal/s. It is not supposed to be the colour they are normally.

The fourth Exercise was Exercise #6. I did Musical Art. I tried my new pastel as I don't use them often. I don't think they are working well or maybe I just don't remember how to use them. It was fun listening to music while I did the sketch. Not sure how good it is. Still I had fun.

Bill and I will be playing the Sims, and singing some songs.

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September 14, 2020

Today I did the first Exercise which is Exercise #7. Message in a bottle, It's so negative I never want anyone to see it. I'm having such an off day that nothing is pulling me out of it. Although my husband's singing is helping now.

Jumped to Exercise 9, but can not do it on the window. We rent the apartment and my Dad is the super. He would loose his mind. Going to do it in my sketch book while looking out of the window.

For exercise 10 I needed to print a turtle thing to colour. My printer is not working as we are out of ink. So I will colour the previous thing I drew.

For exercise 8 I drew in the dark. Weird, wacky, and kind of fun.

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September 15, 2020

I watched a webinar from an art teacher online about weather or not I'm ready to sell. Depending on if it's yes or no for me I will do a word prompt cartoon. I'm just excited to see what she says. So I find I have some work to do. Yet I will........ 100 Day Challenge - image 49 - student project

September 16, 2020 Art Therapy Continued

Exercise 11. Finger painting. Haven't done that since forever. Probably not since Kindergarten. Made a complete abstract art. Still it was fun.

Exercise 12. Looking inside myself. Colouring my heart. Lot's of stuff going on inside for sure.

Exercise 13. My best day. It starts with me waking up with my husband. Having a good breakfast. Painting or Drawing. Lunch. Doing some classes on Skillshare. Supper. Playing with my cat. Dancing with my husband. Snuggling while watching Youtube videos. Then falling asleep.

Exercise 14. Brain Power. I don't have clay so I decided to draw.

Exercise 15. Mental Wonder. You need to answer a lot of questions. You've got to do the class to find out what the questions are. My answers are going to be for me.

September 17, 2020

Exercise 16. Self Critizm of myself. Trying to make it better by writing affirmations on the mirror with post it notes. I'm not telling anyone the bad things I say or the affirmations. Only because it is really hard to let anyone see the things I think every day.

Exercise 17. Catching Negativity. We get to make our own dream catchers. My husband was going to make one with me, but he is not feeling well. I'm going to do one for him. He says he trusts me to make it, because I'll make it beautiful. He's so sweet. I hope he gets better soon. Maybe it'll help him. I didn't do the round dream catcher as I didn't have the supplies. I might go back and do it some other day.

Exercise 18. Positivity Rocks. Decided to use words mostly and a little doodle. Got the rock from the apartments rock garden. It was small enough that I didn't think it would be missed.

Exercise 19. Filtered Art. Not used to colouring a coffee filter. It was kind of weird and went everywhere. Still kind of fun.

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September 18, 2020

Exercise 20.

Painting without a brush, We have yarn, glue and cardboard. Different than I am used to. Was kind of fun.

Exercise 21. White on White Emotions. We use white crayon. I don't have one, will try pencil crayon and watercolour. I will see if it works. It didn't so I can't show it at all.

Exercise 22. Unmasking yourself. One half of the mask will have expectations on it. Then it will be what I want on the other half.

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September 19, 2020

Exercise 23: Creating your picture. Two papers. Cut it up and make a mosaic. Use a colour you yourself associate with stress. For me stress is red and black.

Exercise 24: Emotional colours. Use all your colours and put an emotion to each colour, Then draw your brain and add colours. I hate my brain but here goes.

Exercise 25; Drawing on myself to make art. Again I can't show this. I don't have henna so I will use washable marker. I am not sure this is art therapy although I sure went through a lot doing this class.

Exercise 26. Emotional Fortune. Like the ones you did when you were a child. This is the first time I even made it right.

September 20, 2020.

Today I was not feeling so good. Decided to so something from a previous class. More practice with my left hand drawing whimsical faces. Not sure ho good it is will ask my husband. He said it was good.

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September 21, 2020

Introduction to Flash Fiction:

A story under or around 600 words. Or under 300 or under 100 words. More like a poem then a full story. Or a poem with a plot. Maine elements of Flash fiction 1: Length, 2. Character 3: Twist Ending needs to be impactful and pull at the heart strings.

Elements you need to construct your short story. !. Emotion (Choose what you want to convey.) 2. Character 3. Imagery 4. Incident (start in the middle of the sory) 5. Twist (Hook ending.)

Flash fiction Elements:

1. Emotion to use Sadness. 2. Isabella and Elijah 3. Imagery, Storms 4. Lightening hits the ground besides Elijah. 5. That's how their child died....

The Storm:

Lightening crashed, flooding the room with light and sound. Isabella sat up gasping for breath. Looking around the room her gaze stopped at Elijah. Grabbing at her chest she again made strange breathing noises.

All she smelt was burnt flesh. Without a sound she got out of bed. With every flooding of light in the house she slowly got down the stairs.

Her breath caught with each roll of thunder she heard in her ears. She grabbed at walls and furniture getting herself closer to the front door. All the while flashes of lightening showing her the way. The smell of burnt flesh egging her on.

Finally she threw open the door. Running down the stairs she fell onto the ground. Desperately she screamed one word. "Benji."

Over and over she continued to scream that name. While she crawled around the ground her hand outstretched feeling around for something. She didn't realize her nightgown had begun to stick to her. She did shake with coldness, inside and out.

Thumping can be heard behind her, and still she screams one word. "Benji."

Screams of fear hit Elijah's ears. He goes full speed down the stiars and out the front door. Seeing his biggest fear again. Lightening hitting the ground near his wife. She was unable to see as she searched on the ground. Her hair literally sticks straight up.

"Isabella."

He runs forward his arm snaking around his soaked and frozen wife. She was almost as cold as his dead son. He pulls her up as she screams out "Benji"

Once more he sighs.

"Hun, he's dead. Remember he died in your arms when you both got hit by lightening that day?"

All he heard after that was the most horrible crying sound he would never forget as it hit his ears again.

Carefully he picked up his wife and walked towards his front door. The rain becoming softer and softer until it was almost non-existent. Each step bringing them closer to their hell on earth. Their home. Their door closed silently leaving the rain to pitter patter while sobs floated out of their house.

The End.

September 22nd, 2020

Went out today and got a book. I decided to do some of the exercises in the book about perspectives. One reason is when I first started drawing and painting I forgot about shadows and perspectives. I am going to work on them over and over again so I don't forget it ever again. Wish me luck.

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September 23, 2020

For the second part of the Perspective exercise I've got to try and sketch a sea house drawing. Not sure how well I will so. My straight lines are only made by rulers as I can't do them myself. I also have a hard time with rulers. Which could be why I am off with this as well. Two things I am not good at doing are houses and people. Hopefully I will get better. Will keep trying. Wish me luck. Nope still not quite right.

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September 24th, 2020.

This is for the third part of the exercise. Yesterday I didn't think I did very well. We will see what I can do today.

Okay, again they are not quite right. I think I will have to learn how to do this with a video. It seems I learn better now by video. I will still read the rest of the book.

My husband likes everything I did, but I am frustrated with myself.

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September 25, 2020

I'm trying to try and do the circle perspectives in the book. Maybe I'll get them. If not at least I am trying. I use to understand things from books almost instantly. They were such an easy way for me to learn. I think since the accident I think that I learn better from videos. This will be a test.

I definitely didn't get it right again. I'm so off. I do not or can not understand what I am doing wrong. Tomorrow I am supposed to make pitchers, vases, bowls, glasses, etc. Will see how that goes. I don't think I do shapes or perspectives properly in my drawings. 100 Day Challenge - image 58 - student project